Thanks for sharing your insights, I am enjoying getting to know you and share some of the awesomeness of your life. I think you may be discovering that although pain, struggle, drama and challenge produce great writing and growth; the quiet, consistent, stillness of stability is where you observe who you are and are becoming because of it. love you.
I remember 2003 when I finally met my athletic goals in my sport by winning a national title. It took me a long time and I was "old" to still be competing so it felt good initially to retire. There were pieces throughout my 30s though that missed various aspects of training and competing. Life went to shit for a while.
8 years ago I met the woman who helped me reground myself. Pushed me to heal and grow mentally (by push, I mean, talk to a therapist or we're not going to make it). Now I am actually "old" and am pushing myself physically again in different ways, not to compete with anyone but to be better personally.
To be stable is to be better, to grow upon stability is next level...maybe?
Thanks for sharing your thoughts, you are always one I admire for your honesty in things like this.
I've been trying to write more for ten years. Maybe next year is the year!! I would have guessed "stability." Keep living out loud and sharing when you can. What you do makes a difference in my life.
Sometimes it’s hard to adjust to the quiet after a lifetime of being hyper vigilant, waiting to anticipate which direction the next drama/upheaval/injury will be coming from. It can be hard to adjust even when the quiet is what you have craved. Go easy on yourself. 2023 may bring more stability - and excitement as you relax into it without having to be on alert. Best wishes xx
You use the word "Stability" like it's a bad thing. It absolutely doesn't mean "boring" because I imagine life with Ryan is anything but. I think what's become more stable, or really more quiet, are the nagging voices in your head. For instance, the one that was nagging you to get back to podiums. You're enjoying life on your terms and it's not stressing you out, at least not like it used to.
You are so so loved, during stable years and topsy-turvy years and everything in between. Thank you for being here. Thank you for doing the work you’ve done and continue to do that allows you to be here.
Interesting read! Stable for me has always been a caution zone. A place to feel comfortable, and if I’m not careful, leads to complacency and carelessness. In the addiction recovery world, that spells trouble. So whenever I start feeling too comfortable, I do something to create positive unrest. I hope you continue to find real joy in your life!!
Thank you for this. All of the athletes who admire you, and your courageous reflections and posts, will be aging along with you.
Love this gentle insightful look at a year well lived. Thank you for your words💗So grateful for the love you’ve found🎉
Thanks for sharing your insights, I am enjoying getting to know you and share some of the awesomeness of your life. I think you may be discovering that although pain, struggle, drama and challenge produce great writing and growth; the quiet, consistent, stillness of stability is where you observe who you are and are becoming because of it. love you.
I remember 2003 when I finally met my athletic goals in my sport by winning a national title. It took me a long time and I was "old" to still be competing so it felt good initially to retire. There were pieces throughout my 30s though that missed various aspects of training and competing. Life went to shit for a while.
8 years ago I met the woman who helped me reground myself. Pushed me to heal and grow mentally (by push, I mean, talk to a therapist or we're not going to make it). Now I am actually "old" and am pushing myself physically again in different ways, not to compete with anyone but to be better personally.
To be stable is to be better, to grow upon stability is next level...maybe?
Thanks for sharing your thoughts, you are always one I admire for your honesty in things like this.
Happy 2023!
I've been trying to write more for ten years. Maybe next year is the year!! I would have guessed "stability." Keep living out loud and sharing when you can. What you do makes a difference in my life.
Sometimes it’s hard to adjust to the quiet after a lifetime of being hyper vigilant, waiting to anticipate which direction the next drama/upheaval/injury will be coming from. It can be hard to adjust even when the quiet is what you have craved. Go easy on yourself. 2023 may bring more stability - and excitement as you relax into it without having to be on alert. Best wishes xx
You use the word "Stability" like it's a bad thing. It absolutely doesn't mean "boring" because I imagine life with Ryan is anything but. I think what's become more stable, or really more quiet, are the nagging voices in your head. For instance, the one that was nagging you to get back to podiums. You're enjoying life on your terms and it's not stressing you out, at least not like it used to.
Maybe we can call 2022 "The Year of Peace"
You are so so loved, during stable years and topsy-turvy years and everything in between. Thank you for being here. Thank you for doing the work you’ve done and continue to do that allows you to be here.
Interesting read! Stable for me has always been a caution zone. A place to feel comfortable, and if I’m not careful, leads to complacency and carelessness. In the addiction recovery world, that spells trouble. So whenever I start feeling too comfortable, I do something to create positive unrest. I hope you continue to find real joy in your life!!